Studying is DANGEROUS!!
With increasing amout of time spent on studying, the rate of getting paper cuts increase exponentially. And paper cuts are possibly the most unfavourable pain (as compared to pain from piercings/tattoos).
HENCE, STUDYING IS DANGEROUS!!! EVERYONE STOP NOW!!!!!!!!! (I mean it.)
Bah bah black sheep have you any wool. Yes sir yes sir, three bags full.
Let me try to convince people that being half way through my degree really isnt anything to rejoice about. It has been one and a half yearssssss of agony, and there's another one and a half morrrrreee to go. Honestly, why do people think its a good thing??? To have to continuously convince myself that I need to pull myself through this in order to do what I want eventually is HONESTLY, not easy. And the times when I fail to do so just so happens to be the worst moments in my life.
I look at the theatre community in my school. And just look back on what i've done--nothing. Is it really cause I havent put in the effort? Or does everybody just shun me because I do economics? (As if that it's stamped on my head) But there's just this stigma that seems to be tattooed on my forehead... sign up sheets for auditions ALWAYS come with a column for "Degree", and it never fails to puzzle me. And it comes as no surprise when I often find myself being the only non-theatre or non-literature student.
Argh. Seriously. This year I am SEEMINGLY working harder. Apart from the test that I handed up a blank sheet, I have been passing *most* of my tests/assessments. But there's another year to go, and I honestly dont know how to get through it.
Listen up people who wish they were here in england studying. Honestly, (I speak only for my school), this is a shit hole. People here are no more than paper chasers, and CV-chasers. Everyone here is SO EXTREMELY caught up with getting internships at Goldman Sachs, organising big events, and studying so effing hard. Everytime I look at these people and see NOTHING inside them. No fire, no excitement. Just a hard-ass-working corpse. It's honestly depressing. Either I'm mixing with the wrong crowd (which is unfortunately out of my control), or everyone here is REALLY just empty. Either that, or maybe, I'm the empty one.
Somebody save me.
Haunted by my dreams,
I stay awake.
