the nicotine slowly floats to my head creating a whirlwind with its miniscule seedlings thoughts get thrown around without ever settling I love you with hesitation I let you free with reluctance "My little angel" you say the whirl calms - and rages on with greater fury unsettled I trust you Nicotine threatens to kill uncontrollable my head explodes debris never settling in and out second hand smoke trails into my brain rendering it unhappy and in pain tears induced sleep reluctance to wake to face life I can only wait...helplessly...